Getting Out of the Box while I'm in the Woods. What?

Last week Sheri dug into the guts of my blog and read Getting Out of the Box. I wrote this several years ago, but as I re-read it -- thanks to Sheri's connection with me -- I realized that I  miss the person who wrote those words.

I guess I've been lost in the woods for so long that I've forgotten much. Maybe I've only misremembered -- not sure. It's obvious that when I penned those thoughts with such clarity of soul I had indeed mislain myself, my certain self, and the words were a striving to unearth the displaced person within my skin. Perhaps the search for authenticity is universal regardless of how many actually achieve it.

I admire the one who had the boldness to compose Getting Out of the Box. That woman who set out untroubled to earn back what she felt she had forfeited, what she knew most of us have forfeited in life . . . our original selves. That's who I miss. That person who knew what she wanted, whose determined purpose at that moment was to dig out from under the waste products of conformity. Truly knowing ourselves is a rare gift. A fight worth fighting.

Thanks to Sheri for allowing me a quick relapse into the past of myself. This trip empowered me to realize that I can never win the fight if I'm not willing to fight. If I'm not willing to embrace what's uncertain, become comfortable with the uncomfortable, and relax into the arms of unreliable. Wait a minute, that doesn't sound like a fight . . . embracing, becoming comfortable, relaxing? Maybe for me that  means experieincing my genuine self could be as simple as accepting what I am and where I am right now . . . the unsettled parts of me, the agonizing and disagreeing parts. The whlole of what is lost in the woods.

 

 

Comments

[Brenda S.]

Sounds like your slate isn't so blank after all. That person choosing to be out of the box might not have loved everything she found, but she was mindful of the inner and outer space of herself...accepting what she was and what she felt without judgment. Sounds like a good place to start.